Yet we faced a third pregnancy two years after deciding that our family was complete. Oh, Honey. For those who may have suffered physical injury due to an abortion, we ask that you contact Operation Rescue at 316-683-6790, or e-mail us your story at info.operationrescue@gmail.com. Every now and then I am haunted. Mark Ruffalo spoke out on reproductive rights this weekend, penning a letter in support of a woman's right to choose. The law has no exception to allow an abortion to save the life of . Thank you so much for this. I walked back to the preschool where I work with ten minutes to spare and decided, Ill just do it now. We have been having the same unprotected sex as we were while still together. Im only 21 and Im not financially free. Always imagine what he or she will look like. Not because I want to but because I feel I HAVE to. Listen to your heart, there is no wrong choice. Published Jul 29, 2015. Up to this moment Im still thinking of her, asking God and her for forgiveness. , I think to myself. And so, we eat our burritos, filling ourselves with reality and carne asada. She was worth fighting for. I didnt go through with the abortion, I couldnt once seeing my baby but ever since deciding to keep my baby Im still. Although I did it for health reasons I am still recovering. Hi Melanie, just dont do it! Like you, I was afraid and let fear took over my life. Pro . I am a mom. I do wish I wouldve had more support during this time, mainly because my husband shut down due to his circumstances, but it has gone to show me just how strong I am and how much stronger I can be. Thank you for sharing your story. If anyone has any advice, please send it my way. Fathers should never be bored of their children. And soon I'll get my own fingers and toes. The connection is like no other. I dont want you to go through thisit never does go away. Everyone had always said about decisions like this that you need to be 100% sure either way but I wasnt sure either way at all. It breaks my heart everyday because I didnt really want to get rid of my baby I loved her ( felt she was a girl ), had a name picked out, went to multiple scans ( still got pictures ) .Today is a year since my surgery and I grieve her everyday I regret it . The film is based on a story called "A Letter from an Aborted Child," which had been used for nearly 10 years by Father Stephen Lesniewski to show women in a time of indecision. ? We then move to a different room and wait for the doctor. My heart is so crushed. I regret having the abortion because of many things and I ask hem to have another baby even if my situation was the same but he said he didnt want to have a baby he was hart broken every time he see kids he would say my baby wouldve been her or his age and that kills me inside I cry for so many nights and days I still do. Am I selfish for bringing our baby into this world? I already felt so attached. We dont regret it. She returns and hands me an envelope. Its a hard decision, Hi there Im in the same situation, dont know what to do Im so sick ? Hi. Im the same, my partner cant understand why it still or ever did sadden me, he says it was too early no heartbeat, for that reason he does not feel what I feel, I cry alone, still. I feel my baby moving around and he doesnt understand what Im going through. .. thank you so much for this. I saw a tarot reader 2 years ago and they brought him up and told me he forgave me and understood but I will never forgive myself. The technician asks me if I want pictures, and I say, I do. When she leaves to print them, I repeat the lyric from Gone and I cry more while holding my stomach. I really commend you Shawn. I am so sorry you had to go through this. purchasing sperm from a donor, via a cryobank I had one almost six years ago and I still cry about it. I wasnt ready to quit my job. Im Ill never be sure if I made the right decision, but Im financially incompetent right now. I was very helpless. Ive been sobbing and my drive home I kept apologizing outloud for what I had just done. I stand beside her and encourage her that she made the best decision she could. Our hearts held firm. Please look into and join the face book group I Regret My Abortion there is a logo of a rainbow. My significant other is leaving the decision to me and will support either way it goes but I just dont know what to do. Im stressed and feel so alone. 1 A letter to a woman considering abortion Dear Friend, I was thinking of you today. I feel I would regret it everyday for the rest of my life. She told me he has a live in girlfriend for 6 years and the girl has a 10 year old son that is not his but he helped raise. So many of the feelings you described in your post match mine, and as I read, I finally felt something other than alone. Thank you again. We sit in silence for a little while, then I ask him to sit next to me, and he does, all the while looking surprised. Again, I sleep in the same room as your dad that night, and when my alarm goes off, I get ready to take the bus to work. My supports at the time were my boyfriend, a few very close friends my age, and my 4 younger siblings (3 were under 6 years old at this time). 5 years after that we accidentally get pregnant and have a beautiful baby girl but even after having her I still retreat my choice and he still blaming me as he should I guess but we live a very sad life am trying to have another baby but he is not making as much trying as I do because he say am with you only for my daughter and am living for her to but she always ask for a sister or brother I dont know what to do .so much happened in our life that I think wouldnt be happening if I just have my baby and get married with him . She is a very strong woman but this is killing her slowly and I dont know how to help. In my mind, Ive raised a child on my own, and even with all the struggles, raising her has been the most rewarding experience ever. My boyfriend and I are not financially stable to raise a child right now. Abortion Poem Letter To Mommy From The Womb To be honest, I have always felt strongly against abortion. I havent gone one day without thinking of it and causing major heartache, especially as family members and friend have now kids. It has the potential to work, but like you said, doesnt make sense no matter how hard you look at it. I am not waiting for my appointment in about 10 days for now. Your dad offers to drive me, but I want to listen to music on my headphones. What if I was never able to get back on track with school and start my career? The afternoon I found out I was pregnant with you was just like any other day waiting for my period: I was late. Then I sobbed when I put the phone down. I feel alone, abandoned & ashamed that I have to make this decision. Im broken over this. Everyone experiences the aftermath of abortion differently, but here is what I may have written in a letter to my aborted baby: Dear Asher, Precious boy, how I long to hold you in my arms. Im booked in for abortion on Thursday, Im already a single mum to two kids. That is my story which I have never shared. Please give me some advice Im so lost right now. When I found out I was pregnant this time, I told him as we were arguing. I wish I could have kept you, but I know our lives wouldnt have been what you deserve. Many of my patients have gone through the same thing, and it is never easy. According to The Mirror, a mother explained how she would be relieved if her third child died in their sleep because she was too afraid to get an abortion when she was pregnant as the pregnancy . I found out Im 6 weeks pregnant last week. I might have forgotten what I learned and failed my license exam in the future since Id have to take a leave. I wish I could talk to someone who gets it so much :,( also cate I hope your ok and you and your husband sorted things out. Having an abortion allowed me to live my life and fulfil my dreams but I did become depressed over it and the stigma of having one can be really hurt you. I dont have the financial capability to take care of a child. They were in no particular order: I broke up with your dad and essentially kicked him out of our apartment. I dont know how Im going to get over this. I had a late term surgical abortion, against my will. Good luck on your decision if you havent made up your mind yet but no matter what, I am sure it will be the best decision for you. I ask for the pill and she hands me it along with a cup of water. I wanted to give her grandchildren but that couldnt be my only reason for keeping the baby. Just like you, I too was in university. Published by Family Friend Poems November 2008 with permission of the author. And I too pray from the core of my heart that you all get back your unborn ones. I dont have a strong conviction I can do this. My boyfriend and I have only been dating a few months. I had one 7 years ago and my one and only. Does anyone else feel similar? Colorado. Praying for all of you and I know now every situation is so different. I miss my baby constantly. When I started getting very nauseous all the time my Mom said I was definitely pregnant and we went to the gynecologist who gave me an ultrasound and said I was pregnant. I am a teacher and take care of infants to two year olds, Im devastated because in a better situation I would have kept this child. My boy ( yes, For some crazy reason at that time, I wanted to find out the sex of the baby through the blood test they do to check chromosomes and it was a boy) would be 7 years old. The silly thing is I want another child. Top Poems Im praying that I get an opportunity to meet her one day .. look into her sweet little face and just hold her and never ever let her go. I was wondering how you are feeling. Love you lots!!! Days away from her second abortion, she wrote that getting the abortion is the "right decision for myself, my daughter, and this child." As opposed to most elective . im so lost on how to proceed. I was in a a similar position. This experience has done extraordinary things to me so far i have softened and really felt into my feminine. But I already feel connected and cry so hard every time I think of letting it go. Wishing all loving thoughts to you. Anyway, Im still mourning and will never forget till the day I die. I am thinking of you xx. I just had an abortion a couple days ago and I was 7 weeks. Financially we are already tight. I want two more children. Immediately after I felt relief that I was not constantly nauseous and I could eat again. Ive worked hard to get here and set myself into a schedule for still working, still being able to play with my daughter and somehow study. How first and my first. I PRAY my baby forgives me for being weak And she comes back to me. Im playing the song you listened to sobbing. I was 5 weeks when I decided to let my baby go, I miss her everyday . Your baby. How are you coping? It is sad to see children God has made being murdered. I have an appointment at planned Parenthood in 6 days and a doctors appointment tomorrow. I cant quit my job, but I cant afford 2 in daycare either. I think about it most days (I would be due on 30th May which coincidentally is my birthday) but I dont dwell on it anymore and do appreciate that for me it just wasnt the right time and I was not ready or prepared to give a child the life it deserves. I live with my boyfriend hes 39yrs old. But in reality I know who the dad was because of what had happened on the night we spent together but it did not help my decision as I felt so ashamed. Its not being selfish if you think about it deeper. Anti-abortion and abortion-rights activists argue their viewpoints on the steps of the State House in Trenton, N.J., April 30, 1973. I know what I will do and why I feel it is the best choice I can make, but I will never forget this little tiny creature that has visited me and wanted so much to be my family, as I so wanted to be hers/his. I want to help the conversation start on a different platform and educate. I read this the night before my appointment for my abortion. The first line showed up dark pink as it always did, and then, suddenly, a faint second pink line emerged. People will yawn when they are bored of you. Ebony Angel B. I did regret it but I cant imagine hows my life would had been if I didnt do it. In the end this is her choice and all I can do is support her to the best of my ability. I wish I would have told him to have a nice life. I was diagnosed with a form of heart disease two years ago and the first thing I thought about was how it would affect my life and the babys life. To cheer you up when you're sad. Hi Kai I felt like death every day sometimes unable to stay out longer than 2 hours outside. It ruins our relationship badly as we are both regretting the biggest mistake we made in our lives. The 20-week ban adds another hurdle. I was literally petrified and afraid that no matter what I tried to do, what if I couldnt get it all in order before my baby got here? An Ohio lawmaker proposing a near-total abortion ban was given a hypothetical: A 13-year-old girl is raped and becomes pregnant as a result. I had not passed my probation period and I wanted to prove myself, to be as good as I could be. Let me tell you some things about me. But I cant help but feel a deep sense of loss and regret over ending the pregnancy. Maybe they never will. I tell you where eats 4 in a table, there is always a place for a fifth one. I didnt want him to be there for me or my baby out of obligation, I wanted him to be happy. I feel like you put my experience and feelings into words. Cate, We dont say any words, but our embraces tell each other that we did the right thing. Good luck with that husband. I felt you crying when you went to the doctor. And the warmth of the sun on my back. I was accepted into the Montessori teacher training program two days prior. My advice to you would be do it if YOU want to, dont let nobody not your parents or partner tell you what to do, take some time and think about it because it is a situation that stays with you forever. Chapter Headings: I can hear your voice We want to expand our family but we werent expecting to do it so soon. Children need attention so please think about if youre equipped to care for them on your own as a single parent. Luckily I was able to talk to my partner who was incredibly supportive but there were so many reasons for this not being the right time for us. I am totally against abortion. She wo t talk to anyone as she feels she would be seen as weak. Hi. And understand that by forcing your boyfriend to do something he isnt ready for you may ruin your relationship with him. This was so emotional ? Before the devil knew me, God knew me, he created everything. It all means the same thing. Now Im thinking an abortion is my only option, I kicked him out last night. I want my baby so much but my family are pushing for a termination as I should be having a child when the timing is right. Im sending love your way, dear one. Ive always had irregular periods and issues. I pull out a second test with two pink lines, that I took while on the phone with my sister this time in the apartment, this time repeating different expletives. I open it and see two pictures of you. I'm still alive. Me too A M, August the 30th. I have a lovely 5 year old sweets, a better partner that would totally support me should this happen again..nope. A woman claiming to be pregnant has written an open letter to the "Little Thing" she'll never meet.